Sorry no kids allowed!

I worked half a day today and it was pretty slow so I was reading crap on yahoo and I came across a article that said many places are banning child. Some restaurants, super markets, hotels, and airlines are among the ones doing it. Most places are banning children under 6. Could this have to do with so many people choosing now a days not to have spawn? If you don't have kids does it make our tolerance for them low? Or is it just bad parents who don't know how to control the evil spawn they have created that ruin it? I'm 26 and honestly I still have a good amount of high school friends who are single and have not procreated. I even have cousins in their late 30s who have great careers and have chosen to stay single and not breed. I have pushed 2 kids out of me so I don't fall under the spawn free category. There has never been a time where my kids have acted out so horrible in public that I have gotten a evil look and I've never been told I need to leave a establishment because other customers are complaining. If that ever happened I would be beyond mortified and my kids would be in the worst trouble ever! I have one aunt who has 4 kids. She is a stay at home mom and I honestly love how she has raised her children they are all well behaved, non messy, respectful kids. My bff has 5 children and her kids are also good and don't run around like wild animals causing havoc she too is a stay at home mom who is raising her babies right. Then we have my cousin who just popped out spawn #4 by the way she is a stay at home mom who's never had a job other then that. Her older daughter has become more well behaved but her older son is a different story, he almost started a fire last week so my son will most def not be going over there anymore. When her son was little he would do shit to my kid like throw toys at his face and all my cousin use to say was " no benji stop" never once did she get her skinny ass of the couch grab the little bastard and say "hey look you little shit your asking for a ass beating if you don't start behaving!" No I'm not saying to beat your child but scare the dam kid so they behave! Maybe if more parents did kids wouldn't be banned from certain establishments. Kids don't come out of their moms knowing how to behave. Each parent must do their best to raise their child and teach them what they can or can't do. Who knows how many other places will be banning children in the near future. There are kid free resorts that offer great vacations in a child free environment for people who want to get away from the evil spawn they have created. I hope people remember that when they have their first kid if they find it to hard and difficult they should stop breeding. If they have a second child and are going insane, struggling with everyday life, get on the best birth control ever and stop having kids because your kids will likely be the ones who run like psychos everywhere and cause good kids to be banned from places.

Drivin solo.

Most people hate to drive. I only hate to drive while being stuck in traffic. I think It has to do with moving so slow and not being able to sing in the car cuz I know some idiot is next to me. I also almost always feel safer as the driver. There are very few people whose driving I'm ok with. If the hubs drives sometimes I use my imaginary brake. See when I was very huge and near the end of my pregnancy with my daughter he slammed on the brakes so hard while in slow moving traffic it scared the crap out of me. Good thing my daughter didn't pop out of me right then and there. I almost always drive everywhere we go. I got my license when I was 17. I remember being so nervous during my behind the wheel and parking test. But I passed the first time! Woo! I love to drive with the radio on super loud so I can sing my ass off when I'm alone. Like most girls I do my singing in the shower (I've always kept a radio in the bathroom since I was 8) and in the car. My first camry didn't have a aux cable for my iPod. My camry now does and it's a lifesaver. Makes using a iPod or cell phone with music so easy. I love it. The hubs has brought up the topic of driving to Texas since he's kids live out there but I feel that a 19 hour drive would be torture to my kids. Maybe some day when they are old? I don't know we will see.

Sorry doesn't make it better.

I'm sorry that you don't want to go back to the place your at most of the year. I'm sorry you wish you could get sick so you could stay longer. I'm sorry you play a sport you don't truly love. I'm sorry you have to change another Childs diapers. I'm sorry you have to live so far away. I wish I could do more to help you with these things. I'm sorry that I can't.

Blood type O positive.

I like donating blood or plasma. I really do. I would rather donate blood though. I have no problem going to a United Blood services office or mobile office to do it. I don't do it for money. I did get free movie tickets once though. I have type O positive blood. The universal blood, which means it can be used on other blood types but I myself can only receive O positive if needed. Sadly I have not donated blood since 2006 =/ once I got the courage to finally get a tattoo. See most states have a law that does not let you donate blood till a year after you have gotten a tattoo. Which I have not gone a whole entire year with out getting a tattoo since then. Whether it's a actual piece or just a touch up I haven't lasted a year. It makes me feel kinda bad to know I can't go and donate blood. It's important to do since we never know when we can have a nation wide emergency and blood can be needed or if a hospital patient needs extra blood to keep them from dying after a bad car accident. We live in a world that has made many of us turn into ungratefuls because we've never suffered true hardship or tragedy. Most of us have never been in the position were we actually need blood or a loved one has died because the hospital did not have enough blood for them. I love getting tattoos and I do think it is unfair that I can't donate blood because of it. But I do understand that because not everyone gets tattoos in a shop or clean environment is the reasons why these rules have been put in place. Not every state has the same tattoo laws and due to the fact that anybody can buy a tattoo machine and start scratching people skin makes it a health hazard. It does suck for those of us who get tattooed by trained professionals who do everything properly to insure that there is no cross contamination. I think anybody who is in good health should go donate blood if they can. You never know it might save a life. Maybe sometime soon I'll challenge myself to go a whole year with out a tattoo so I can donate once again.

50/50

What is this 50/50 you speak of??? So far I haven't seen it much. Hmmm maybe some day I will? No, no I doubt it. I'll continue to pretend though for my self and my stress levels. The bad ones never fail at ruining it for the good ones, now ain't that the dam truth. Now it's time to hit the land of dreams and hope I don't have any of those recurring nightmares. I wonder if they actually mean anything. Let's hope not.

It warms my <3

They make me happy, they warm my heart. I am speaking of Atreyu. No I'm not talking about the movie. I'm talking about the band, who has found it's way into my heart. They've become my favorite over these past years. I've had the chance to see them twice and I even have a autograph drum head from them. If you don't listen to them you should. They got me through the lamest 7 months of my life. Everyday I would drive my one hour drive to work with them on super loud singing my ass off preparing my self for another day to survive my long lame 7 months. I don't get tired of them. I can listen to them over and over. From "Lip gloss and black" to "Storm to pass" I love it all. When "Her portrait in black" comes on it gives me chills I love how it starts off so heavy. "Blow" gives me the courage to tell lairs to fuck off! "Bleeding mascara" makes me wanna sing! "Ex's and oh's" makes me wanna dance. I love "The crimson". Below I posted some of my favorite lyrics by them. I had to post all of "Blow" though. It's just for one of those days when you wanna beat a punching bag or somebodies face. I hope they start touring soon. I'm getting my concert fix next month with Weezer but I still wanna see Atreyu again.

Can you feel her
Running through your veins?
She will always live forever**Her portrait in black***



Will you still hold me when you see what I have done?
Will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victim's blood?
So crimson and red, I feel it flowing from your lips (crimson and red)
My heart is dead and so are you**The crimson***

"Look how pretty she is, when she falls down,
Now there is no beauty in, bleeding mascara,
Lip are quivering, like a withering rose" **Bleeding Mascara**



You took me home
I drank too much
'Cause of you my liver turned to dust
Cold rust taste
A cruel creeping cold pain
Do you understand what I mean?
When you feel your soul drop to the floor
Like a hole
Like an open bleeding sore
Then you'll have bled like I bled
And you'll have wept as I've wept

Suck me down, it's time to rock and roll
Let's hit the bar, let's lose control
One false move, you took me home
One false move, you're all alone**Ex's and oh's**









So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies, and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.

Oh my god did you just hear
lies are coming back in style?
Oh my god this seems so real that they find you,
and confine you

So shut your mouth, we've heard it all.
Hypocrite's and critics all
can fuck off we do this for our souls,
our souls.

What they say, won't make us go away.

So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies,
and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.

We're not sorry and we won't conform.
It's not our choice but something inborn.
If we fail followin' are hearts
can you blame us? (No, no, no)

A square peg in a black hole
We don't fit in that's the way it goes.
You should of not thought you're better than us,
no, you're not.
(No, no, no)

What they say, won't make us go away.

So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies,
and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.

So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies,
and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.
(Blow, blow, blow)
Blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.

Tell yourself yourself you're not alone at all.
(Looking out your window, know you're all alone)
Oh, tell yourself you're not alone at all. (At all)
(Staring out your window, know you're alone)

What they say, won't make us go away.
Go away, go away, go away.

So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies,
and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.

So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies,
and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.
(Blow, blow, blow)
Blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.
(Of your head, of your head, of your head)
Yea!**Blow***




I know that it's killing me,
and it's poisoning the best of me,
What I see, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more, tell you more,
about the lies I lead.**Slow burn***


Watching, waiting
Dreadful, shaking
Will the storm pass over us today?
Will lighting strike our sins away?
Watching, Waiting
Falling, Shaking
Will the storm pass over us today?
Or is the future looking grey?**Storm to pass***

I of course want to get my Atreyu tattoo someday. "Live, Love, Burn, Die"

The 2 boys

I gave birth to my Bryan Anthony. I carried him for 39 weeks, had him with out pain meds and survived. If I had my way I would have kept him a 1 yr old forever. He has become so big. Today he made me upset when I came home because he told me he was bored and was practically in tears. So I told him "oh your bored? I'll show you bored!" and sent him upstairs to read a book. After dinner I sat and spoke with about a tragic event that has happened on his fathers side of the family and explained how they needed money. I told him how much they probably needed and asked him if he would be willing to help and he offered half of his savings which isn't much since he's only 10. But he said he was willing to donate it and wait on buying what he's been saving for. Of course I didn't take his money. I just put it out of my pocket. I usually get very annoyed because his dad doesn't help with money but today I'm thankful my baby and I have made it just fine all these year with out it thank God.

I didn't carry Zen, I didn't even know the baby Zen but I became his step mom once I married the Hubs. Every kid is picky. My son and step daughter are very picky. My husband is a picky ass too. But Zen isn't he's willing to try everything once. He makes cooking a home meal rewarding because he eats and asks for seconds. When he leaves in a few days I'm gonna miss cooking him meals. He doesn't get along with Bryan or Wednesday all the time but he is a protective big brother to the 3 smaller kids.