Message from a angry mom

Yes a few weeks ago I became angry. I pulled out my angry mom card and punched somebody in the gut via facebook message. Don't you just love social networks? LoL

My 11 yr old son Bryan is a priority... YES A PRIORITY... Bryan is not a option... he is not something you can chose to care for every once in a while when you feel like it. He is human, a child and wonderful little boy who is soon going to be a teenager. My son eats, needs clothes, and wishes I could buy him all the legos he wants. I can't but I try my hardest to make sure our lifestyle is a normal comfortable one where every once in a while we can have a small luxury like a trip to Disneyland or a Sunday evening at Chuck E. Cheese. Like I said he is and always will be a Priority.  A few weeks ago while using his facebook account my son discovered the man who's last name he carries had a child who he had failed to mention to him that he was having or had. Yes my son had to discover this via social network. See the last time he saw his father was in February and it was not because his father made an effort to see him. It was because my parents went to California and offered to take Bryan to his aunts house (my bff) and she was nice enough to give Bryan's father a heads up about him going. Miraculously he went to see him. The following month we went to California for my husbands job training and went to visit my BFF. While there my sons grandfathers GF decided she would make it a point to tell me my son's father was having a baby. Yes she actually asked if I knew and then made it a point to make sure she told me once she had been told prior to my arrival that I did not know. Like I told her I really don't care since he doesn't bother to contact my son or pay child support. I guess she was thinking I would freak out and give her something to gossip about but I didn't. I've been happily married for over 4 years to my amazing husband and we have a daughter together. Not once in the 3 times after that my son talked to his dad  since then did he bother to mention to him he was expecting another child. I asked my son if he had told him and he son said no and that he did not want to ask. He has a Facebook account he rarely uses and he became very sad and tears came out of his eyes when he saw that his father had a child who he hid from him. My son commented on photo of the child. He said he asked his dad why he hadn't told him. A couple days later I recieved this message:


"Haha.... I like how u use Bryans FB account to look @ my FB... I know u rote that. Dont act stupid & pretend ur him"

I became super pissed off and said F this it's time to just tell him how I really feel and I did.

Warning the language I used was not meant to offend anybody but him. I apologize in advance if this happens to offend you or upset you but I'm sick of the fact that my son is just pushed back and not even cared for by the one other person who swore he would be there for him forever no matter what!

My angry message:

"Your a fuckin fag and a douche bag worthless piece of shit father. I didn't write anything. If you knew ur son you would know he knows how to use a computer. Your not the one who saw his tears roll down his face because u hid something that you should have told him. Your a jackass who doesn't care about him. You don't call him enough and you don't worry about his well being. How do you think he feels knowing u hid something important from him? Your assholeness is never gonna go away. You bitch about your fucked up life but you neglect him like he doesn't exist. Once hes older he will see how you truly are and that your action's speak louder then words. Keep being worthless because its all your good for. Bryan should be a priority in your life you stupid ass not a fuckin option!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grow the fuck up!!!!!!!!!!!! Stop being a selfish bastard!!!!!!! You know nothing about being a father. Nothing. And fyi I showed Bryan your message he's sick right now but its not like you would know since you barely bother to fuckin call him. Go get drunk you fuckin alcoholic cuz we all know that's the only thing your good for! Beer comes first before child support to you!!"

Was this too much? I think not.

The SEX and the ED

 

The time has come.... today I signed the permission slip for my 11 yr old allowing him to attend a hour long class that will tell him about the human reproductive system and HIV/AIDS.  Shit I still remember taking my class in elementary.  Raising a boy of course is different then a girl but aye no sometimes there are so many things I worry about.


During our last trip to California we had dinner with Calidad (my mother in law) who has no problem with conversations about sex and sexuality. During our loud family dinner along with my 2 brother in laws, one who is my age (Cezar) and another who is younger then my son (Chris) and Priscilla (older bro in laws GF) , Cezar decided to ask why they would be left alone so much as kids. Calidad looked at him and said she was only down the street from the house at church. Then she told them don't think I didn't know what you guys would do while I was gone because I would find those movies and the magazines.  Hahaha. Yes the Playboys

and the cheap porn they would steal from "socks and flip flops" (their dad). This is what I fear. I don't wanna find the porn or sexy babes on the computer history or catch him watching Skinamax (cinemax) past 10pm. Thinking his man voice is going to come soon and he will need to shave and probably have horrid acne soon is bad enough.

The 2 boys

I gave birth to my Bryan Anthony. I carried him for 39 weeks, had him with out pain meds and survived. If I had my way I would have kept him a 1 yr old forever. He has become so big. Today he made me upset when I came home because he told me he was bored and was practically in tears. So I told him "oh your bored? I'll show you bored!" and sent him upstairs to read a book. After dinner I sat and spoke with about a tragic event that has happened on his fathers side of the family and explained how they needed money. I told him how much they probably needed and asked him if he would be willing to help and he offered half of his savings which isn't much since he's only 10. But he said he was willing to donate it and wait on buying what he's been saving for. Of course I didn't take his money. I just put it out of my pocket. I usually get very annoyed because his dad doesn't help with money but today I'm thankful my baby and I have made it just fine all these year with out it thank God.

I didn't carry Zen, I didn't even know the baby Zen but I became his step mom once I married the Hubs. Every kid is picky. My son and step daughter are very picky. My husband is a picky ass too. But Zen isn't he's willing to try everything once. He makes cooking a home meal rewarding because he eats and asks for seconds. When he leaves in a few days I'm gonna miss cooking him meals. He doesn't get along with Bryan or Wednesday all the time but he is a protective big brother to the 3 smaller kids.