It warms my <3

They make me happy, they warm my heart. I am speaking of Atreyu. No I'm not talking about the movie. I'm talking about the band, who has found it's way into my heart. They've become my favorite over these past years. I've had the chance to see them twice and I even have a autograph drum head from them. If you don't listen to them you should. They got me through the lamest 7 months of my life. Everyday I would drive my one hour drive to work with them on super loud singing my ass off preparing my self for another day to survive my long lame 7 months. I don't get tired of them. I can listen to them over and over. From "Lip gloss and black" to "Storm to pass" I love it all. When "Her portrait in black" comes on it gives me chills I love how it starts off so heavy. "Blow" gives me the courage to tell lairs to fuck off! "Bleeding mascara" makes me wanna sing! "Ex's and oh's" makes me wanna dance. I love "The crimson". Below I posted some of my favorite lyrics by them. I had to post all of "Blow" though. It's just for one of those days when you wanna beat a punching bag or somebodies face. I hope they start touring soon. I'm getting my concert fix next month with Weezer but I still wanna see Atreyu again.

Can you feel her
Running through your veins?
She will always live forever**Her portrait in black***



Will you still hold me when you see what I have done?
Will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victim's blood?
So crimson and red, I feel it flowing from your lips (crimson and red)
My heart is dead and so are you**The crimson***

"Look how pretty she is, when she falls down,
Now there is no beauty in, bleeding mascara,
Lip are quivering, like a withering rose" **Bleeding Mascara**



You took me home
I drank too much
'Cause of you my liver turned to dust
Cold rust taste
A cruel creeping cold pain
Do you understand what I mean?
When you feel your soul drop to the floor
Like a hole
Like an open bleeding sore
Then you'll have bled like I bled
And you'll have wept as I've wept

Suck me down, it's time to rock and roll
Let's hit the bar, let's lose control
One false move, you took me home
One false move, you're all alone**Ex's and oh's**









So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies, and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.

Oh my god did you just hear
lies are coming back in style?
Oh my god this seems so real that they find you,
and confine you

So shut your mouth, we've heard it all.
Hypocrite's and critics all
can fuck off we do this for our souls,
our souls.

What they say, won't make us go away.

So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies,
and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.

We're not sorry and we won't conform.
It's not our choice but something inborn.
If we fail followin' are hearts
can you blame us? (No, no, no)

A square peg in a black hole
We don't fit in that's the way it goes.
You should of not thought you're better than us,
no, you're not.
(No, no, no)

What they say, won't make us go away.

So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies,
and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.

So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies,
and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.
(Blow, blow, blow)
Blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.

Tell yourself yourself you're not alone at all.
(Looking out your window, know you're all alone)
Oh, tell yourself you're not alone at all. (At all)
(Staring out your window, know you're alone)

What they say, won't make us go away.
Go away, go away, go away.

So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies,
and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.

So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head,
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit,
You tell me lies,
and you get what you get,
so blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.
(Blow, blow, blow)
Blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head.
(Of your head, of your head, of your head)
Yea!**Blow***




I know that it's killing me,
and it's poisoning the best of me,
What I see, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more, tell you more,
about the lies I lead.**Slow burn***


Watching, waiting
Dreadful, shaking
Will the storm pass over us today?
Will lighting strike our sins away?
Watching, Waiting
Falling, Shaking
Will the storm pass over us today?
Or is the future looking grey?**Storm to pass***

I of course want to get my Atreyu tattoo someday. "Live, Love, Burn, Die"

Deftones & Weezer!!!!!! Ohhhhhhhh Chino....ohhhhhhhh Rivers...

In about 2 weeks we will be seeing Deftones play at the Joint inside the Hard Rock. Last time I saw them it was kick ass. I'm assuming this time will be even better since they are headling. Which will give them more time to play. I've liked the Deftones since the first time I heard "bored" on "the box". Does anybody remember that channel?? It was the channel that would charge you to play videos and as a young child I would just wait and wait till somebody would order a video. My husband is the hardcore fan. He even kinda looks a lil like Chino the singer. I'm hoping I get to see more of Chino running around on stage showing off his Calvin Klein undies. Maybe this time I will get to see some butt crack hahahah just kidding.

In August I will finally get to see Weezer. I've killed 2 of Weezers blue albums. That's how much I would listen to it. "Hash Pipe" always makes me wish I could really kick somebodies ass. ( I've never been in a fight my entire life) They will be playing at the Red Rock pool which I'm really excited to see what that's going to be like. Ohhh dear Rivers you are king nerd. Now we just need to find a July concert.

Hearts and thoughts,

They fade away... Yes if you love the kind of music I do then you would know what band sings that. Pearl Jam. The song just popped into my head as I sit here trying to watch "the secret life of a american teenager". Cheesy? Yes I know..anyways back to music I was telling my husband a few weeks back that it would be awesomeness if Rise Against and Rage against the Machine played a show together.

I've seen them both but never together.... Ooooooh I would love to see Tom from Rage again...he is one of the best guitarist ever. I still remember the day I got my first Rage cd. My brother Luis gave it to me. Turns out they will be playing a show together but not in Vegas =[ super sad face. The concert will be taking place in LA. I wish they would play a show in Vegas together!! Is there anyway I could request that? Probably not.

Since driving out to LA during one of our busy months ( the step kiddos will be here) doesn't seem possible. I will hope to see Weezer in August instead. They will be playing pool side at Red Rock. Hope the Muppets show up as their special guest..hehe..

The cube farm...

That sort of describes the office in a way. My desk is just behind the receptionist desk which works well because when it gets too busy im the only one who's allowed to help her with answering the phones and all the other great office work she sometimes needs help with. I sit here with my lil radio which I sometimes connect the AUX cable to so I can listen to the good stuff like Atreyu, Rise Against, and Weezer. It helps my blood flow better and prep me for every client appointment I have during the day. I have a family picture to my right which is a full family picture. By full I mean it includes my son from a previous relationship, my husbands son and daughter from a previous relationship and our daughter we have together. Just below that is the picture of the hubs and i at his company xmas party. Under that is the picture of a purple hippo which I colored. I love hippos and the hubs hates them. The face he makes when you even mention them is priceless! Always a good laugh. I also have a picture of a owl on that side that I also colored. We had a ground owl that lived in our backyard and my mom covered up his hole twice because she kept saying it was not a good sign. I loved it. It was so cool to see a actual owl in the backyard. To the left of me I have a drawing done by a tattoo artist that I would love to collect a piece from some day. In front of me is a picture of a painting I printed out done by another tattoo artist who's work I love as well..this is my cube..