She' s Beautiful

Ok I love my Ipad but it's not always comfy when trying to write a long blog post. Me and the hubs agreed to get a desktop as our Xmas gift. At first I was totally feeling buyer remorse but now not so much. I must say she is pretty dam beautiful and so much easier to post from...plus she is a touch screen..

My Lego heart....

Our hearts are a ugly organ. They aren't pretty like the valentine candy tattoo hearts I have on my wrist. Much less is it as pretty as a Lego heart.

I have 2 children I carried each for over 38 weeks. I'm the mom. Being the mom means tons of stuff falls on you. How they are dressed, wether they are fat, skinny, and how much video game time they are allowed in one day. I'm not a strict mom but my kids are not allowed to walk all over me. I piss them both off. If my son wants to play with my iPad all day and I tell him he can't I get his silent cry. If my daughter wants to go " bye bye" and I saw no I get the bratty annoying drama queen cry. The longest I've ever gone with out seeing my boy is 2 weeks and that was because he went on vacation to Costa Rica with my mom. I had no body to baby sit him so I had to let him go. My daughter is 3 and the longest she's ever been gone is 2 days because my sister took her to California for a birthday party. Since they are 7 years apart they don't fight. It's more like they just annoy each other.

I hope one day they will understand my mommy heart. I hope they will understand why I nag them and discipline them. I hope they understand why I'm not a stay at home mom. I hope that they understand my life is 15% about me and 85% about them.

Esto es Calidad..this is quality

We have a secret Nickname for the mother in law "Calidad" which means Quality. Martha is not your average mother in law. The first day I met her she offered me something to drink and came back with a Heinken Light. She said it was good por que it had less carbs. Hahaha. How many people have a mother in law who gives you a beer when you first meet her? My mother in law is no longer married to the short angry sock and sandal wearing man who is my father in law. They have been divorced for over 15 years. Her nickname comes a minor altercation she had with a girlfriend my father in law had soon after their divorce. Apparently she went over to his house and the chick opened the door and she started showing off her goods telling her "this is quality". My husbands reenactment of it always makes me laugh. One time I told my husband I was pretty sure his mom had a nickname for his penis when he was a baby since most mexican woman do and he didn't believe me. Of course I asked Martha and I was right she called it "pajarito" hahaha. A couple of weeks ago I asked her why she named my hub Juan because no body ever ever ever calls him that. 95% of the time I forget that's his first name. She told me it was because when she was 17 and pregnant with him there was a actor who was hotter then Justin Beiber named "Juan Carlos" lol. How she knows anything about Beiber is beyond me. She enjoys wine and beer which if I ever saw my mom drink more then one small coke with alcohol during the holidays I would cry. I feel bad for all the girls who have rude, bitchy, and evil mother in laws. Martha is nowhere near that. She stays out of our business. So if you have a mother in law who sucks let me tell you...sucks being you sucka and yea it's ok if your jealous. My mother in law has courage and no shame (most of the time) and I wouldn't have it any other way!

Being super thankful is around the corner, so is Rise Against

The other day the hub asked me why I hadn't blogged in a while. I have but I haven't posted it. 2 more days till turkey day. The day we are suppose to be thankful for what we have. I'm thankful everyday for what I have. This morning while saying my thankful morning prayer right after my alarm went of I fell back asleep I blame the hubs for being so comfy. I think we forget a lot of times what we should be thankful for. We take things for granted and get caught up in our every day lives sometimes. As life goes on we learn, grow and realize what and who are important. I'm super thankful for everything. I had a nightmare the other day and when I woke up I was grateful to have the hub next to me. My life isn't full of rich fancy things but it's full of love and family which makes you feel good.

"You can't fill your cup until you empty all it has
You can't understand what lays ahead
If you don't understand the past
You'll never learn to fly now
Til you're standing at the cliff
And you can't truly love until you've given up on it"

There is great band by the name of Rise Against. I heart them so. I'm blood type O positive and crave meat but if I didn't I might actually try to follow their vegan ways because I get their message. I wish I could hang out with them for just one week. I wonder what it would be like. Well in the mean time I'll just make it a goal to see them every time they come to Vegas. See you December 8 boys. Second time this year!

I miss you,

Many moons ago I had cookie monster slippers. Oh how I still wish I had some. I love you cookie monster. <3

Only few could do it.

There are many females who have no issues getting pregnant. There are some who just simply can't do it. Even with meds, shots, in vitro. It just doesn't work for them at all. Some people turn to adoption. Others turn to surrogate moms. This is when they find a woman who will carry a baby for them but the baby will still be genetically theirs. If you've ever been pregnant you know it's very hard to even think of not being able to keep that baby you have been carrying for 40 weeks. At this moment I don't feel the need to have another child of my own. Does't mean I don't want more but at this moment no. The 2 I have bring plenty of joy and work into my life. For a while when I thought I was going to be a stay at home mom this year for a bit I looked up the requirements for being a surrogate mom. There are lots of different things you must do and requirements you must meet but if I had the time and patience for it I think I would give it a shot. This is coming from a person who would adopt a child if she could later on in the future. I mean after all genetically the child would not be mine but I would have to keep it safe and healthy for 40 weeks while it's baking in the womb. I understand the importance of a couple wanting a child that is genetically theirs. Things like that matter if the child is ever Ill. Also when your in a loving marriage you want to see what beautiful genetic mix you can both create. Plus this would bring ultimate joy to a couples life. If a couple can afford surrogacy then they will be able to provide the child a good life because the whole process is pricey. You really can't put a price tag on ultimate happiness and joy. Just because these couples can't physical have a child doesn't mean they won't be awesome parents. If anything the whole process with make the appreciate the child that much more. To anyone who has ever been a surrogate mom Yay for you. Like everything it has it's good and bad. I think though if you go into the process with the knowledge of what's to come and the willingness to help another human you will have a good happy out come.

Disney, Mickey Mouse, Snow White and Lightsabers.

For my Birthday I wanted to go to Disney with the kids and the hub. So we did. I always said I would never dress my daughter as a Disney princess and take her to Disney if I ever had one. Well guess who was walking with Snow White all day.

The look on my daughters face when she saw Mickey mouse and got to take a picture with him was priceless. It was a expensive trip but the look on her face at that moment was priceless and so was watching my son build his lifesaber.

We got to stay there and trick o treat at night. I think we all left happy. My baby boy had a great time on the Star Wars ride.

Too bad we live so far away if not we would be at Disney so much more often.

The princess only wanted her daddy to take her on this ride.