The important, the hopes and the wants.

My mom leaves for her home country tomorrow. She will be in Costa Rica for till February 9th enjoying some much needed time off with her favorite sisters. I haven't been in years. I wanna go. I do. But I haven't really had the chance to do so. The working full time doesn't really allow it nor do my 2 spawns. So I've lagged it and haven't renewed my passport. I haven't left the country since 2007. Wow it's been a while. Vacation and travel is a hope and a want. It's not really important. Maybe that's why I haven't made it a priority.

The strange things I tend to miss...

There are a couple of odd things that I miss in my life. My life is totally functional and fine without it but there are still things I do miss.

Ballet, as a small child I took ballet and dance class for a while. My parents pulled me out when the school moved and they didn't want to drive further. I always wonder if I would have been skinner in life if my parents kept me in ballet.

My trips to Costa Rica. I went there many times as a small child. Last time I went I was 13. I can't believe it's been so fucking long. Omg time goes by to fast. I remember going and staying there for 2 weeks at a time, then crying when we had to fly back home because all I wanted was to stay at my Tia Nifas house.

Jr high, by far one of the most carefree times of my life. We had fun, we went out, we stayed out late it was great. It was me and the bff Judy. Stuck to each other like gum. What in the world were we thinking wanting to grow up? I miss walking half way to meet my friend Queta or riding my bike around the block with my friend Jessica. Going to church retreats with Judy. Growing up in the valley was great.

The cemetery, it's a sad place especially when death first happens but once you come to peace with it it becomes a quiet peaceful place to go to. I miss all the conversations and lunches I had there with the bff Norma. Sometimes when I feel like just talking I wish I could drive all the way out there and meet her there.

My son being 1 & 2. My little monster grew so fast I miss those days where he would make me watch Monsters Inc and Toy Story a million times. That was back when I was a stay at him mom and was lucky enough to only have to go to school for a few hours then spend the rest of my time with him.

Now it's on to the married mommy full time worker. Life is still good. I just have bills now. Lol

Haircut...please!

I'm in need of one bad! I've been very good...and by that I mean I haven't dyed it or bleached it in almost a year come May. I don't want it short. I've had it short before but I never liked it. The only time I really enjoyed having short hair was the first time I cut it short. I went to Costa Rica with my mom to visit family and my whole life my father never ever wanted my hair short. It was always kept right above my butt. All my aunts on my dads side (the mexican side) always had long hair so since I was his only child he wanted me to keep it like them. It's funny because now I find myself being like that with my 2yr old. I dont want her to ever have short hair I want to keep her long tell she's old enough to decided on her own how she wants it. Well on this trip to Costa Rica he hadn't gone so when my aunt took me to the hair stylist I told her I wanted it short up to my shoulders and that's just what I got. I remember being so happy thinking yay I have short hair now no more having to worry about having to put it in ponytail! I kept it like that for a couple of years then in jr high I let it grow out and kept it long till my son was born. I cut it because I knew I would be so busy with him that I wouldnt have much time to style it plus at that time we lived in California. My hair hates humidity there is not much styling that can be done with that weather I would curl it and a hour later you couldnt even notice it. Once he was about 2 I let grow back out and in 8 yrs I've kept it long. I've been wanting bangs for a while but have been to chicken to go thru with it. Maybe this next time I get my  hair cut I will just go for it ..maybe.