Only few could do it.

There are many females who have no issues getting pregnant. There are some who just simply can't do it. Even with meds, shots, in vitro. It just doesn't work for them at all. Some people turn to adoption. Others turn to surrogate moms. This is when they find a woman who will carry a baby for them but the baby will still be genetically theirs. If you've ever been pregnant you know it's very hard to even think of not being able to keep that baby you have been carrying for 40 weeks. At this moment I don't feel the need to have another child of my own. Does't mean I don't want more but at this moment no. The 2 I have bring plenty of joy and work into my life. For a while when I thought I was going to be a stay at home mom this year for a bit I looked up the requirements for being a surrogate mom. There are lots of different things you must do and requirements you must meet but if I had the time and patience for it I think I would give it a shot. This is coming from a person who would adopt a child if she could later on in the future. I mean after all genetically the child would not be mine but I would have to keep it safe and healthy for 40 weeks while it's baking in the womb. I understand the importance of a couple wanting a child that is genetically theirs. Things like that matter if the child is ever Ill. Also when your in a loving marriage you want to see what beautiful genetic mix you can both create. Plus this would bring ultimate joy to a couples life. If a couple can afford surrogacy then they will be able to provide the child a good life because the whole process is pricey. You really can't put a price tag on ultimate happiness and joy. Just because these couples can't physical have a child doesn't mean they won't be awesome parents. If anything the whole process with make the appreciate the child that much more. To anyone who has ever been a surrogate mom Yay for you. Like everything it has it's good and bad. I think though if you go into the process with the knowledge of what's to come and the willingness to help another human you will have a good happy out come.

Disney, Mickey Mouse, Snow White and Lightsabers.

For my Birthday I wanted to go to Disney with the kids and the hub. So we did. I always said I would never dress my daughter as a Disney princess and take her to Disney if I ever had one. Well guess who was walking with Snow White all day.

The look on my daughters face when she saw Mickey mouse and got to take a picture with him was priceless. It was a expensive trip but the look on her face at that moment was priceless and so was watching my son build his lifesaber.

We got to stay there and trick o treat at night. I think we all left happy. My baby boy had a great time on the Star Wars ride.

Too bad we live so far away if not we would be at Disney so much more often.

The princess only wanted her daddy to take her on this ride.

Welcome

To the jungle.... By Guns N Roses is the song I will be playing very loud for my son when he turns 18. It seems like the perfect song to play for him once he reaches adult status. It will also be the song I play for the hub the day I have to drop him off at the nursing home. LoL

The Dirty 30 is near.

I can remember all the way back to my 5th birthday. I went to Disneyland with my mom, my sister and Danny our neighbor. It was great. I think I had a party for my 6th which I believe was Simpson themed. My little cousin bit my friend in the butt. I don't remember the 8th, 9th, 11th. I think I had a great sleep over for my 12th. I think. My 13th birthday party was the best ever. Yes ever. I had a party with a DJ. A big thing back in my day. I got a computer for my 15th. I really wanted a quinceañera but it didn't happen. I was on my way to being a teen mom on my 16 birthday. I can't think of anything special that happened on my 17th,18th,19, or 20th. My 21st I celebrated at 40 deuce and I deeply apologize to the porter at Mandalay bay who had to clean up my barf the next morning. On my 22nd I had a party at Izaak's. Which as always is good times. For my 23rd I had dinner with my parents and son. The high light of my 24th birthday was my bottle of Marliyn Monroe wine my bff Marcos sent me. My 25th was a good one. And for my 26th the hubby got me my awesome Tattoo Prodigies book and custom kick ass cup cakes. I've always had a good birthday for the most part. Some I can't remember well but it's not because nothing wasn't done it's because I'm tired right now and my memory sucks sometimes. Tomorrow I will be 27. It's not the same like when your in high school or middle school and your bff's surprise your with balloons, Winnie the pooh and tigger beanies. I miss those times. So this year when I was deciding what I would bug the hub for I decided on Disneyland. Next Friday we will be at the happiest place on earth. This way I can enjoy it and so can my kids. I passed up having him get me tickets for the 48 hour festival at which Korn, Five finger Death punch and Avenged sevenfold are playing at. It's ok I've seen some of those bands anyways and I'm not a into being at all day concerts. I've done Warped tour and Rock the Bells before I'm getting to old for that. Haha. When I was a kid I would get a funny excited feeling in my tummy the day before my bday. I think it was the thought of knowing I would get presents? I don't know. I haven't had that feeling at all today. I haven't had it in years. Must go away with age. I'm not gonna worry about heading towards the dirty 30 because I don't have a I wanna do this before I'm 30 list. But in 3 more years I'll no longer be in my 20s. Sometimes I feel like I was just 13 not so long ago.

Some "Sexy babies" for the guys

I made my list of hot guys. But now it's time to make a list of my favorite "sexy babes". Just because I do have guy friends who read this plus some of my bff's are guys so this is for you. I've been meaning to put this together all week. Some of these girls are models, some actors but they are all hot.

Can I have a barf bag? Why do you always have excuses?

I don't have a court order saying I can't speak my mind. I can rant all I want. I can say the truth and call you anything out of the book I see fit. It's not my fault your life is the way it is. See there seems to be a misunderstanding here. A big one. This is how the story goes. I got a millennium scholarship when I graduated high school for maintaining my B average. I went to Monroe high for a year and a half after that I went to independent study I had my son and stopped going for a whole year. After that I was finally able to go back when I moved to Vegas with my parents. My sons father actually didn't want me to go back even though I wanted too. Im thankful I went and finished. Once I finished we came to a agreement that he would go to school first. I took my entry exams but didn't sign up for classes since we both couldn't go at the same time plus I didn't know what I wanted to study. Around this time is when I got tired of all the bullshit. The controlling attitude and many other things had began to take it's toll. See in this relationship I wasn't able to listen to the kind of music I liked such as rock because it was devil music. I couldn't dress the way I liked because I looked like a little girl. I was once told I would go to hell because of the way I was. He choose his brother over me at a restaurant and made me cry right at the table. I got in trouble once because his fathers brother in law bought me a ice cream. When I did go to school everyday I had to come home and tell him every single person I spoke to and let him check my note book. Privacy didn't exist. He even disliked my bff and would get mad if I saw her. I took this from the time I was 14 till I was 19. The finally straw was the restaurant incident and coming home late one night from work finding my son hiding under the table and his uncle asleep on the couch who was probably drunk and his father knocked out too with the door unlocked. I told him he had to move by the time we moved to my parents new house. Once we moved he moved back to California for a while. Then he moved back to Vegas. I would let him have Bryan when he would ask but it got to the point that every time I would let him take him he would ask me to let him borrow money. The total amount of money he ever borrowed has totaled over $800. He finally ended up moving again to Cali. He's never tried to work out a custody agreement with me. I told him last year that If he could start helping me with money I would give him the same custody schedule my husband has with his kids he agreed but when the time came to start he never called me. So I said enough I've held off for 6 years filing paper work for child support. I filed last November and of course the address I had for him was no good. They can't start anything till he is served. When my daughter stopped breathing for a couple seconds last year I called him and told him he needs to call and see his son more often. He acted like he understood. He did ask me one time after that to take my son but I told him no because we already had plans. Last year my son went to my bff Normas house who is also his aunt and spend 2 weeks with her. He had a blast with her. During the visit was the last time he saw his father. For these past 4 months he has not called my son. My son doesn't have a number to reach him at and neither do I. Last time I did have a number for him i text him to let him know my sons grades and his gf text me back telling me he was asleep I told her ok thanks but i wasnt expecting a response then she text me again about why I was texting him. Um hello i didnt know i was not allowed to in form him of his sons grades. Which this is not the first time she has used his phone to text me. A couple years ago she text me to question me about going to a quinceañera my bff (his sister) was having idk why she had to text me to ask. But whatever. He did make a fb account and message my son but my son rarely checks his fb especially now that he is so busy with school. But fb contact is not the same as a phone call. My husband has 2 kids who live in Texas. It's far and not something he had a say in. Now that they have a good custody agreement worked out he still only gets to see his kids a total of about 60 days depending on the year. 60 days out of the whole year isnt much at all. He misses out on way more then half of their lives. My husband is here everyday and he sees my son and is his friend. My son doesn't call him dad. I would never force that upon my child. The only person who deserves to be called dad is the man who gave him his last name because it's just the way it should be. Maybe if my husband raised my son from the time he was a toddler the story would be different. My husband finally became tired of seeing that my son doesn't even get a phone call from his father. Did I mention he also didn't get a birthday or Xmas gift from his dad last year because his dad had to pay his rent. Lovely excuse isn't it? Well my husband sent my sons father a little fb message yesterday about him not calling my son often and guess who called my cell phone today. Of course he was pissed that my husband called him out on not calling my son more like livid. But really can you blame my husband? 4 months without calling is except able if your deployed, in jail or in a coma. And let me tell you he is neither of the 3. So he tells me he hasn't called because his health is not good. His thyroid is failing. I've been on thyroid med since I was 18. My father has had his removed and my mom takes thyroid meds too. I know about thyroid. So he tells me this is why he has not had 5 minutes in 4 months to call my son. He told me he has been jobless since January. The other day my poor son told my mom his dad probably hasn't called him because he's too busy working. So much for that excuse. He threaten and told me my husband better never tell him anything like that ever again. It got him to call didn't it? Anyways he told me I lived the good life while he was stuck living the shitty life. Hey let's get this straight it's not my fault he decided not to finish going to culinary school then got stuck with the loan. I have no control over his thyroid either. I've never wished him bodily harm. But yet he's yelling and cussing at me. Really? He accused me of keeping my son from him. This is the mom who has told her son and others before if he had a great job, better home and could provide for my son 100 times better then me I would never deny my son that and let him have full custody instead. But of course this is not the case. He also told me that because I had opened the child support against him he didn't want to call and hear a mouth full from me. I told him I couldn't even get the case started because I can't have him served since idk where he lives. Then he started telling my he's never kept that info from me. Ok so why don't I even have a fucking phone number for him? I also told him he could take Bryan as along as he's gonna be in somebodies care and he starts telling me he lives a 2 bedroom apt. Just so Bryan would have space when he goes. This is the first I heard this story. So towards the end of the conversation I told him stop with the fucking excuses enough already your over 30 years old act like it. I told him I've never asked him for shit what if one day I was broke and didn't have money then what? He also yelled at me saying I could ask his sis for his number. I told him I never would because it's not her job to give it to me. I'm tired of this. Excuses, excuses, excuses. Good thing the phone call was dropped. Let's get shit straight this is one of the worst excuses ever for not calling your son in so long. Ever. Hopefully next time he's damaging his body with alcohol he realizes what changes he needs to make to have the relationship he should have with my son and learn to man up. Odds are he won't but you never know.

More then one.

Could you be a part of a marriage in which you aren't the only wife? Would you be ok with sharing your husband with 3 other women? Can you handle taking turns with them every night on who gets to sleep with him? Would you feel ok raising your kids along with the other kids your husband has with his other 3 wives? Is being a sister wive something you could handle?



I never really thought about polygamy then HBO brought out BIG LOVE. In that show the husband comes from a Mormon polygamist family. Him and his first wife have a monogamous relationship till she gets sick and they have a girl from the husbands former polygamist compound come help them. She then becomes the second wife and later a young babysitter they employee becomes the third. They lived in 3 separate homes all next to each other with the backyards being connected. I actually really liked this show.

Now TLC has the reality show Sister Wives. These are real women who are all in a marriage relationship with one man. Only the first wife is legally married to him. They all have children by this one man. They are a modern day polygamist family. They aren't the compound kind of polygamist which is the ones who have a bad name for child abuse and other things.

I've been watching this show since day one. I like it. I know this is not a lifestyle I could ever have. But I like the show. I find it interesting that they all function so well in that lifestyle and work together on everything. There is a little bit of jealousy but not too much to really affect their relationships.

Personally I'm a one man kinda gal as most of us are. The thought of having to share my "til death due us part" man with any other woman is creepy and disgusting. I'm not saying they are disgusting but I couldn't handle it because the thought of sharing this man sexually with other women would just bug the crap out of me and I would feel disgusted by it. It would be creepy to me because having to share him just seems like a strange concept for me to handle. The man is mine and only mine and his death will quickly part us if I ever caught him cheating. I'm just a little jealous I know.. LoL. But seriously it must take insane amounts of confidence and trust to be in a polygamist relationship. Even my husband says he couldn't handle having so many wives. I think it must be because I alone drive him to insanity. Now imagine 3 more chicks to add to that. Poor guy would have a mental break down. I see it's pros. It's nice to have other women around to talk to and raise your children with and who also are there to help you day to day. I also view the cons. This is a very rare lifestyle. Most of these relationships that exist are kept on the low low. For legal reasons being one of them since having multiple wives is against the law. But how do you explain to your children that when they go to school they can't tell people they have other siblings from other mommies and that you all live together. I think that hiding this lifestyle must be hard on a child. I'm all for this if it's what makes you happy, you can afford it and your kids are being raised properly. Which by the looks of it all the kids this family has seem to be good happy kids. Just because it's something most of us could never do personally doesn't mean these people should be treated like they are bad people because they are not. They aren't killing or abusing people they are just trying to live life like most of us.

The nice one...

I know I made my list of things I wanted to blog about but my mind is feeling blank right now when I'm trying to pick something off my list. I think my mind may be on customer care overload. Over 81 phone calls today which most were lazy realtors, cranky threatening homeowners and a technology lawyer who tried to sound scary when he said "have them call me at the law firm" blah blah blah. Aye Dios mio. Why do people feel that they have to be mean to get what they want? Didn't your momma teach you to be nice? Or did she raise you telling you everyday " you gotta be a asshole to everyone and everything especially those trying to help you" . Ugh. All I know is people need to realize they are not the only ones and the world doesn't revolve around them. You are not the only customer. You will not make or break a business if you decided to not use their services. A business that has made profit in "these hard times" is not going to freak out because you say " I'll have my lawyer husband write a letter" or " I didn't have money to pay my bill, now I'm in collections and you won't help me so I'm going to call my lawyer as well". To the first 1 I wanted to say " don't bother calling here just send your stupid letter our legal council is upstairs and he's hella smart so bring it". To the 2nd I wanted to say " um stfu and stop lying if you can't clear your $300 account with collections please tell me where your going to get $3000 to pay a lawyer for your retainer? Please tell me I'm dying to hear" oh how I want to be a bitch sometimes. I'm too nice sometimes I really am. I think I'm still really mad at the lady who demanded I apologize to her because she was transferred to voice mail in the previous call and said the girl who did that was unprofessional. Oh well like the hub says kill them with kindness.

This would be a great way to have calls screened.

Hahahahahahaha.

We've hit October.

How can I not love October? My birthday is on the 15th and it's also the same month as Halloween. Time to make my list about what I feel like blogging about this month.

Sister wives...

Surrogate motherhood

To chemo or not to chemo

27 it is...

Disney for my bday just like when I was 5.

Halloween!