Adopt me!

Since I was a kid I have always known one thing. Someday I would like to adopt a child. I was always the kid who watched feed the children for hours on the weekends. If not I would watch a show in Spanish about donating money to children who had no food or proper shelter. I think that sparked my adoption idea, I remember wishing I could bring one of the kids home to live with me. Once while in Mexico waiting to go to the airport a child a lil older then me asked my father for taco money and he told us he was poor and had no parents, I remember asking my father to please let him come home with us because I wanted a brother and he had no family. I felt horrible leaving that kid behind. I didn't know him but knowing he had nobody made me who at the time was only 4 feel so bad that he couldn't just come home with us. I didn't know why some kid would be left alone to wonder the dangerous streets on Mexico.  I have 2 kids that I carried and gave birth to. I have 2 I have gained from marriage. My heart has always wanted 3. Yes technically I have 4 but 2 of them only spend about 60 days a year with us. The other 300 they are with their mother. So most of the time it's just my 10 yr old and 3 yr old. My mom had 3 kids, my sister has 3 kids. 3 just seems like a good number, it's not too much and not too little. 

I've only mentioned it to a few people in my life that I would like to adopt. My sons father thought I was insane for wanting to bring a strange child that was not blood into the family. Hmmmmmmmmmm could have to do with a reason why me and him are no longer together. Why is it crazy to want to care for a child who needs a caring loving family? Why get knocked up when their are so many kids out there who need someone? If you think adoption is crazy well then I think your a heartless asswipe. A guy I dated for 2 years thought adoption was a crazy idea too. Now as for my husband we have discussed it. He says he would be fine with adoption but I don't know exactly how much effort he would put towards actually going through with it since he has other goals he wants to focus on. We have looked at the idea of having 1 more child but our daughter is still too young. Sorry I'm the kind of person who wants kids 5 yrs apart. By the time a child is 5 they understand more who that crying baby is that you brought home from the hospital. I don't have a crazy goal of by when I wanna have all my kids. If I have one after 30 no big deal. Truth is I want a little boy though. If I had another child I wouldn't be able to pick the sex. Now if I could adopt I would be able too. 

Here are the problems with adoption though. If you adopt a child from the U.S it's very expensive and no matter how many papers you sign the biological mom could always try to come into the picture. It's also very time consuming and it could take a few years before we even get a child. Thats if we even get approved. Now there is out of country adoption I've looked into that. It's still expensive but the process isn't that long. Only thing is that it would take a few trips to the childs country to get everything organized and sometimes there are hold ups with immigration. 


As for our financial situation we wouldn't be able to afford adoption for a few years. Between the husband paying child support, spending over 2k on plane tickets a year for his kids to fly out here and my sons father avoiding child support like a mutha fucker money gets tight. Thank God we aren't poor poor but we don't exactly have 10k set aside to try to get a adoption process started. This may not be something I will ever get to do in my life but it's something I would love to do if I got the chance. A person I admire very much is a wonderful mother to the child she adopted years ago as a baby and is now a grown successful young man, who has a amazing relationship with her. Maybe one day " si dios quiere " like my mom says, my dream of adoption could happen.