Wait for me!

So part of the meet and greet for the Rise Against concert was getting a camera from X1075 to record the concert. Us along with 4 other people had the opportunity to do this. My hub went to the radio station a few days later and turned in the memory card so they could turn it into a video using clips from everyones footage. It feels like forever but finally the video is done and on youtube! Yeah! You don't see my face but thats because I did most of the recording. But you do get to see my arm being signed by Tim the singer! Woooo! You do get to see my goofy hub make a funny face in it as well! lol!

Thank you............

I haven't done one of these in a while so it's time for one. Often we get way to caught up with the normal blahness in life and forget to be grateful, thankful, and kind. Especially the kind part i have done my fair share of offending this year. Yeah well Opps it happens. Sometimes life just takes over too much. Here is my thankful list for today.

1. Atreyu. Again as I listen to them today I remember how much their music helped me through the end of 2008 when I could have hit rock bottom and just lose it.



2. Meeting Rise Against. After watching them in concerts and listening to them getting the chance to meet them was awesome!! They are just great down to earth guys. Dreams do come true!




3. My Babies. Being a mom is hard. There are something things you will always wish you did better at when it comes to being a parent. Mia Monroe and Bryan Anthony and my little babies.






4. My "till death do us part" man.





5. My Parents they are just amazing to my children. My babies get so much love from both of them I am glad they have one good set of grandparents.

It's almost XMAS

Wow has it really been over a month since I last posted something?? Oh goodness. Well Xmas is almost here and guess what I am nowhere near being done with my shopping... I suck I know...lol. I'll be done before Xmas I hope. Since my last post I went to see the Deftones again! haha! Yay Deftones! I didn't get to see Chinos butt though...oh well maybe next time.

Curse of curves

When are you going to stop watching what you eat and working out?? Excuse me?? Um no. The hub asked me that a couple days ago. Apparently he misses some of the curves I have lost. I've had the curse of curves for years well it's time to tone these curves. My body by vi journey started in June. I was able to drop 20 lbs with that. Now it's time to tone up with BBX and lose inches. Like Dede says "love the pain" and "piece of cake piece of pie." I'm going to keep my BBX going. Seeing the progress in just over a month since I started makes me feel stupid for all the money I ever spent on gym memberships. BBX is worth every penny!


 

Let me tell you...

•  I don't care what you think
•  You are just you
•  You are not special...maybe short bus special
•  It's not threats that count..it's promises
•  I grew up in the Valley
• Words are just words
•  Stop over analyzing not everything is about you
•  If you can't get along with people stay away
•  Respect privacy
•  Listen to Rise Against & Rage Against the Machine you   may learn something
•  Learn to be Thankful...bitching gets you nothing
•  Searching for what you don't want to know will get you to it
•  If you don't have sarcasm you are missing out
•  That attitude isn't going to take you place you want to be at
•  Dealing with stupid takes patience
•  Reality slaps you hard

 

Bon Voyage

I seriously can't wait for you to BON VOYAGE the fuck out of here! Enjoy SUCKA! Just like the Sheryl Crow song says "I think a change would do you good."

The day I met Rise Against...

I once went through this really lame hard period in life. It sucked and it was emotionally painful. Through this time 3 bands helped me survive the annoyingness I was dealing with and made my long drives to work better. Rise Against was one of them. This CD was in my car for a really long time. I liked their stuff prior but this one just had what I needed to hear at the time.

In 2009 I got my first chance to see them. Then in 2011 I saw them twice. They announced their upcoming October show but because it's my birthday month I figured the hub may not want to go for the 4th time. My favorite morning radio guys were giving away meet n greet passes along with a camera to record the whole concert. Last week the hub came home and said "I need you to listen to this voice mail". It turned out to be a guy from the station saying the hub won the prize package. I was so happy I swear I almost cried!!!!! What a awesome way to start my birthday month! Yes I got to meet the band and they are some super awesome guys. It wasn't a meet n greet that had them at a table and them just signing stuff. They came out into a small room and we got to take pictures with them, have them sign our stuff and actually have a conversation with each band member. I got to talk to Tim (the singer) about their upcoming show in Costa Rica and the show they played a few days prior with Tom from RATM...ekkkk Love him!

These guys are fucking AMAZING! I love them and forever will!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tim signed my arm and it is now my newest tattoo. Yes Creepy fan status I know!!!


<tim











<drummer

Message from a angry mom

Yes a few weeks ago I became angry. I pulled out my angry mom card and punched somebody in the gut via facebook message. Don't you just love social networks? LoL

My 11 yr old son Bryan is a priority... YES A PRIORITY... Bryan is not a option... he is not something you can chose to care for every once in a while when you feel like it. He is human, a child and wonderful little boy who is soon going to be a teenager. My son eats, needs clothes, and wishes I could buy him all the legos he wants. I can't but I try my hardest to make sure our lifestyle is a normal comfortable one where every once in a while we can have a small luxury like a trip to Disneyland or a Sunday evening at Chuck E. Cheese. Like I said he is and always will be a Priority.  A few weeks ago while using his facebook account my son discovered the man who's last name he carries had a child who he had failed to mention to him that he was having or had. Yes my son had to discover this via social network. See the last time he saw his father was in February and it was not because his father made an effort to see him. It was because my parents went to California and offered to take Bryan to his aunts house (my bff) and she was nice enough to give Bryan's father a heads up about him going. Miraculously he went to see him. The following month we went to California for my husbands job training and went to visit my BFF. While there my sons grandfathers GF decided she would make it a point to tell me my son's father was having a baby. Yes she actually asked if I knew and then made it a point to make sure she told me once she had been told prior to my arrival that I did not know. Like I told her I really don't care since he doesn't bother to contact my son or pay child support. I guess she was thinking I would freak out and give her something to gossip about but I didn't. I've been happily married for over 4 years to my amazing husband and we have a daughter together. Not once in the 3 times after that my son talked to his dad  since then did he bother to mention to him he was expecting another child. I asked my son if he had told him and he son said no and that he did not want to ask. He has a Facebook account he rarely uses and he became very sad and tears came out of his eyes when he saw that his father had a child who he hid from him. My son commented on photo of the child. He said he asked his dad why he hadn't told him. A couple days later I recieved this message:


"Haha.... I like how u use Bryans FB account to look @ my FB... I know u rote that. Dont act stupid & pretend ur him"

I became super pissed off and said F this it's time to just tell him how I really feel and I did.

Warning the language I used was not meant to offend anybody but him. I apologize in advance if this happens to offend you or upset you but I'm sick of the fact that my son is just pushed back and not even cared for by the one other person who swore he would be there for him forever no matter what!

My angry message:

"Your a fuckin fag and a douche bag worthless piece of shit father. I didn't write anything. If you knew ur son you would know he knows how to use a computer. Your not the one who saw his tears roll down his face because u hid something that you should have told him. Your a jackass who doesn't care about him. You don't call him enough and you don't worry about his well being. How do you think he feels knowing u hid something important from him? Your assholeness is never gonna go away. You bitch about your fucked up life but you neglect him like he doesn't exist. Once hes older he will see how you truly are and that your action's speak louder then words. Keep being worthless because its all your good for. Bryan should be a priority in your life you stupid ass not a fuckin option!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grow the fuck up!!!!!!!!!!!! Stop being a selfish bastard!!!!!!! You know nothing about being a father. Nothing. And fyi I showed Bryan your message he's sick right now but its not like you would know since you barely bother to fuckin call him. Go get drunk you fuckin alcoholic cuz we all know that's the only thing your good for! Beer comes first before child support to you!!"

Was this too much? I think not.

Ready!

I'm waiting for my BBX to get here. Hopefully it will be here before the end of the week. I ordered it on Friday night. Totally ready for this 90 day challenge. I'm also waiting on my corset. It's back ordered and won't be here for about 3 weeks!! ahhh!

20 what?

Crap balls!!!! In less than a month I'm gonna be 28! Seriously this year is flying by. My life is flying by! My kid just entered middle school. Back to school night was last week and yup I was once again the youngest mom there. It's Saturday night and my brain is still adapting to my new position at work so I'm too tired to go anywhere. I'd rather listen to The Ghost of Tom Joad by Rage Against the Machine and the hub killing enemies on Call of Duty. The one thing I look forward to about turning 28 is that I will be going to Knotts Berry Farm and Disneyland. Who would have ever guessed these are the things I request to do for my birthday. Haha! My inner child is a big one and can't seem to grow.

Waist

I want to start waist training soon. I made my decision Saturday. Then today my 4 yr old started crying because I told her she couldn't have a baby sister... lol

What is missed.

Why do I miss being 12-14 years old so much? Is it because I use to stay up late and listen to Love line? Could it be I miss sleeping with the radio on or listening to Power Tools on Power 106 super late on Saturday nights. Maybe I miss going to Middle school. Maybe I miss ditching P.E cause man we hated P.E and I know Mrs. Scott hated us. Haha! Maybe I miss my nina picking me up everyday and asking me how my day was. Maybe I miss my pretty black Doc Martins. I know I miss hitting up BK. I miss walking all the way to Vanessa G's house in the rain with Judy. I miss our bus rides to the mall. I miss going to tower records. I miss the sleep overs. I miss the 3 way calls with Judy and Jennifer. I miss going to places with Queta or hanging out at her house.  I miss riding my bike around the block with my little Jessica. Dam I'm old. This shit was ohhh so long ago but I swear I doesn't feel like it sometimes.

Inside Joke.

Me and the hub have our little inside jokes and this just reminded me of one of our favorite ones! hahahahahahaha!!!!! Like he says "Allllll the sudden!"

Advantage

Ok so in this life we have moochers. A moochers job is just to take advantage of you. Financially in most cases. If you keep trying to be nice person the moocher will suck you dry. True story. The moochers don't give a shit about you. They just see you as support so they can continue to use you. When you need them they are gone. People keep telling you not to help the moocher but you don't listen. Well look at you now. No body cares about how you are at all. Why do you do this to yourself? Your never gonna answer.

 

What's Cupcakes & Amor?

So you keep seeing this Cupcakes & Amor thingy pop up in your newsfeed if we are FB friends. It's just a little blog I write in when I have time to do so. I write what I feel or whats on my mind. Just random stuff most of the time.  My random thought of the day: i want another cupcake tattoo.

Color yourself for some change

I use to dye my hair alot. Then I stopped. I've had brown, bright red, blond, bright candy apple red...by far my fav. Well I'm back in color mode. I've added some purple. Not much but just to brighten things up a bit.




















 the latest...PURPLE!!! ya!

What I sure could use right now...

 My confidence level to be sky high!






My modivation needs to kick ass!

Kiss my ass 15lbs.

Yup thanks to watching my food consumption and body by vi 90 day challenge this fat girl is down 15lbs and counting. My goal was 20lbs but I don't know I still have a month and a half of shake supply left so maybe I'll end up losing a total of 25 or 30? You never know. I'm going to combine this with Bbx 90 day work out challenge which I will be ordering in a couple of weeks. Time to tone up too. I feel good my clothes fit better. My face is way clear and I have energy.

Because it's true, Ted knows

It's been forever....

The stepkiddos came and went. Yup 42 days of summer flashed right before our face. But it's how summers normally are for us. It sucks cause everybody is sad when it's time to go.

Making the F***ing EFFORT!

Don't expect to get what you so claim you want if you don't even bother to make the effort....

Take it away..

Yup in my house if your grades blow I will take away what you love the most. Today Bryan lost his 3DS and WII. I warned him and all I ever ask is that he get good grades. Well it didn't happen and this summer he will find out MOM doesn't play. He better get it drilled in his brain that I'm not playing and education is important. This summer drawing, reading and possibly paint will be come what he will be spending his free time on. Learn my child learn. I'm not a fan of the teacher he had this year or the school he went to. Hoping the fresh new start of Middle school will be a little better.

So F***ing cute!!!!!!

My Dearest Cookie Monster,

I have always loved you and you are so fucking cute in this picture!

xoxo

It's gonna be busy!

So once again the month is almost over. I've started my 90 day Body By Vi challenge. As of last Friday which marked week 2 I have lost 6lbs. I'm going for a 20lbs. Yes at this moment my inner fat girl hates me but my outer fat girl really wants to do it. The month of June brings busy-ness. My 2 step kids come from Texas for 42 days on the 15th. The 16th my 3 year old turns 4. Yikes! I'm gonna be busy! Woo!